O Lord, here I go AGAIN!

Well, here we are in January. The holidays are past and I failed miserably by eating everything and anything that looked delicious. I know I put weight on because my pants are tighter, but I'm not stepping on that scale! Maybe when I get a little more courage I will, but today isn't the day. I am flying home from Florida tonight, so I shopped PEAPOD ( on- line grocery shopping for those who don't know) and ordered all healthy low- fat foods. I will make most of my meals from scratch, that way I have a lot more control over what I eat. Apparently my husband and another family member (who will remain anonymous) want to join in this weight loss endeavor, with my daughter's wedding as the end goal. I haven't even looked at dresses! I ain't pouring this fat butt into a dress yet. You think that I would feel more motivated, but I don't. I think psychologically I like food way more then looking good. Man, that attitude needs to be changed. It's weird on how each day can bring a different mood about the whole thing. Sometimes I wish I hated to cook, or hated to eat. But I'm just not wired that way. Food has always been part of who I am. I think Italians get their identity from food. But we have such great tasting, yummy, delicious things to eat. Just look at how many Italian restaurants are around. Why couldn't I be English? LoL. So, tomorrow I will begin the grueling trek. Honestly, I'm really not looking forward to it and I'd be lying if I said I was!