Not feeling it!

I'm feeling a bit down on myself today.  I don't know why I have been struggling so much.  I feel hungry all the time, even if my belly is full.  I know it's in my head.  I do ok until late afternoon.  Then all hell breaks loose.  I am eating a balanced diet, but I find myself foraging later at night for something, anything!!!  I don't think I have ever had this problem last this long.  Normally I'll have a few hours or a day that I feel weak, but this isn't going away.  Perhaps I need a reason to loose the weight.  I don't really have one.  Yeah, I know I'll feel better, be healthier and look better in my clothes, but that doesn't seem to offer me enough motivation.  I wish someone would tell me I looked pudgy!  That always seemed to work in the past.  I just need a really good reason.  I have a cruise coming up, but that offers no push either. Maybe because I'm middle aged and really don't care that much how I look in a bathing suit.  Maybe I'm going through menopause! I heard that changes the way a woman feels.  I just don't seem to care enough.  My mind is more than willing, but my mouth is not cooperating....maybe I should think about all those extra pounds I'll be putting on during the cruise...I certainly don't want to gain weight.  Maybe it's because I've gotten a little comfortable at my current weight. I really don't know the answer to this. I'll have to do some thinking....hope you are not struggling as badly as I am..God help me!