Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I'm feeling a bit down on myself today. I don't know why I have been struggling so much. I feel hungry all the time, even if my belly is full. I know it's in my head. I do ok until late afternoon. Then all hell breaks loose. I am eating a balanced diet, but I find myself foraging later at night for something, anything!!! I don't think I have ever had this problem last this long. Normally I'll have a few hours or a day that I feel weak, but this isn't going away. Perhaps I need a reason to loose the weight. I don't really have one. Yeah, I know I'll feel better, be healthier and look better in my clothes, but that doesn't seem to offer me enough motivation. I wish someone would tell me I looked pudgy! That always seemed to work in the past. I just need a really good reason. I have a cruise coming up, but that offers no push either. Maybe because I'm middle aged and really don't care that much how I look in a bathing suit. Maybe I'm going through menopause! I heard that changes the way a woman feels. I just don't seem to care enough. My mind is more than willing, but my mouth is not cooperating....maybe I should think about all those extra pounds I'll be putting on during the cruise...I certainly don't want to gain weight. Maybe it's because I've gotten a little comfortable at my current weight. I really don't know the answer to this. I'll have to do some thinking....hope you are not struggling as badly as I am..God help me!